“It was the best time of my life.”

Dad’s nostalgia on a recent Friday evening carried him back through the 35 years he spent with Boy Scouts of America. Making it all the way to one badge short of Eagle Scout (a story he’ll tell with little prompting) set him up to spend over 20 years as a Scout leader. His loyalty and dedication earned him a pin, a certificate and a handshake from the district head of scouting before a gathering of family and friends.

The day after Dad’s award ceremony, I read these words and thought of him:

“Godly contentment will keep us in a state of discontentment with the world around us. It will help us recognize temporary comforts such as a full stomach and a safe place in which to lay our heads are not the destination in our lives. Godly contentment makes pilgrims out of us.” Michelle Van Loon in Born to Wander: Recovering the Value of Our Pilgrim Identity

The author calls this state of wandering a “holy discontent”.

In some ways, discontentment with his world today has taken my father by the hand and left him wandering through happier times, to spaces and places where his life had purpose — “the best time of my life.” Contentment for him has always been fed less by food on the table and a safe place to lay his head than by knowing he had a role to play: husband and father, soldier, scout leader, mail carrier, cemetery tender. No wonder his conversations with his children these days often begin with “Is this all there is?”

My father isn’t a spiritual man. He’s pragmatic. Keep your nose clean, work hard, help others and you’ll be seen as a good person. It’s worked for him, so it isn’t likely he’d call his current state of discontentment “holy”. The truth is, he’s not looking for holy. Maybe the faith he and God settled on during his childhood in the Presbyterian church and adulthood in the Catholic church are his passage to eternity. I pray they are.

Because I want him to rediscover contentment. I want my father to know this isn’t all there is — a reclining lift chair in a cramped nursing home room, meals with strangers, baths at the hands of another stranger. This isn’t all there is, but maybe it’s a path to all there is.

All his life, Dad has told stories, so many good ones that I’ve written a book full of them. Within those pages are tales of his years as a mailman, a soldier and a Boy Scout. Reflecting on his best days brings a measure of contentment, but the truth is it can’t last. Because those roles aren’t eternal. They aren’t the destination.

Like most of us, Dad is wandering, a discontented pilgrim with a suitcase full of memories, in search of an eternal home.

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Michelle Van Loon’s beautiful book Born to Wander: Recovering the Value of Our Pilgrim Identity has caused me to think more deeply about my own state of “holy discontent”. With imagery from Scripture and stories from her own life, her book is helping me open my heart to this pilgrim journey and understand that it’s not just okay to “wander”, it’s in my DNA. If you’ve ever felt restless and rootless, read Born to Wander.

 

 

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